Ok latly I don't know why but for some reason christas isn't what I thought it would be like. I mean in the past i would always be excited about christmas cause I belivd in Sana, and always had a reason to be excited about what I may get under the tree for what I have done over the years. But now a days after seeing soe of my friends lose family members, loosing my own family members then knowing their was nothing for me to do for them or anyone else I knd of...fell a little less spirited. The worst part of it all is latly, normaly no matter what I would always put on a smile and make sure my friens would fell like they were appreciated. No matter what they have done I would always stick by them,even if they went depressed or did something wrong. I mean I would never talk bad about my friends no matter what but...its just starting to get to me. For many of you who just come to the journal for kicks to look at , and just like Carrier I will say this. I Don't want Popularity nor do I care for, All I want for christams and the only thing I want for christams, Reconition for who I am. Many people always have soem sort of reconition for people weather they have it cuase thye are friends iwth soemeone, they live near by or just because there good artiest. Iw ant to be reconized for who adn what I do. Thats all I wanted to rant about, so go stuff yourselfs.